{"id":1288,"date":"2020-04-28T23:09:29","date_gmt":"2020-04-28T21:09:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/still-i-rise.co.za\/?p=1288"},"modified":"2020-04-28T23:09:29","modified_gmt":"2020-04-28T21:09:29","slug":"chapter-20-the-truth-whose-truth","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/still-i-rise.co.za\/?p=1288","title":{"rendered":"Chapter 20 \u2013 The Truth (whose truth)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span id=\"p1202\">They\u00a0<span id=\"1995-1996\">met<\/span>\u00a0at\u00a0<span id=\"1864-1865\">work<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p1203\">\u00a0She\u00a0<span id=\"1410-1997-1998\">was<\/span>\u00a020\u00a0<span id=\"1866-1867\">years<\/span>\u00a0his\u00a0<span id=\"1868\">junior<\/span>\u00a0and\u00a0<span id=\"1869-1870\">reporting<\/span>\u00a0to him.<\/span><span id=\"p1204\">\u00a0<span id=\"1303\">He<\/span>\u00a0was fascinated with her, her\u00a0<span id=\"1871-1872\">youth<\/span>, they had\u00a0<span id=\"1411\">so<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1412\">much<\/span>\u00a0in\u00a0<span id=\"1873\">common<\/span>. <\/span><span id=\"p1205\">\u00a0They\u00a0<span id=\"1999-2000\">started<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2001-2002\">spending<\/span> all their free time together.<\/span><span id=\"p1206\"><span id=\"p1206-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1273-p1206-pv\">She claimed she<\/span><span id=\"p1206-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1328-p1206-pv\">never<\/span><span id=\"p1206-pv\">\u00a0knew\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1304-p1206-pv\">he<\/span><span id=\"p1206-pv\">\u00a0was\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1413-2003-2004-p1206-pv\">married<\/span><span id=\"p1206-pv\">, and <\/span><span id=\"1274-p1206-pv\">she<\/span><span id=\"p1206-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1329-p1206-pv\">never<\/span><span id=\"p1206-pv\"> asked.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p1208\"><span id=\"p1208-pl\">When they became more\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2005-2006-p1208-pl\">involved<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1307-p1208-pl\">he<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1333-1415-2007-2008-p1208-pl\">told<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1326-p1208-pl\">her<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0about us\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"p1207\">(my\u00a0<span id=\"1876-1877\">son<\/span>\u00a0and me)<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0, but\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1334-2009-2010-p1208-pl\">told<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1327-p1208-pl\">her<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0we are only together because of our\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1878-1879-p1208-pl\">son<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">, we\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2011-2012-p1208-pl\">share<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0absolutely nothing, but I\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2013-2014-p1208-pl\">refuse<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1416-2015-2016-p1208-pl\">give<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1287-p1208-pl\">him<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">\u00a0a\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1880-1881-p1208-pl\">divorce<\/span><span id=\"p1208-pl\">.<\/span><\/span><span id=\"p1209\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><em><strong><span id=\"p1209\"><span id=\"1275\">She<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2017\">fell in love<\/span>\u00a0with\u00a0<span id=\"1288\">him<\/span>\u00a0and\u00a0<span id=\"2018-2019\">believed<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1289\">him<\/span>.<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p1212\">They went everywhere together, everyone at\u00a0<span id=\"1887-1888\">work<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2031-2032\">knew<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1308\">he<\/span>\u00a0was having an affair,\u00a0<span id=\"1276\">she<\/span>\u00a0spent time in my\u00a0<span id=\"1889-1890\">home<\/span>\u00a0whenever\u00a0<span id=\"1343\">I<\/span>\u00a0was away.<\/span><span id=\"p1213\">\u00a0<span id=\"1277\">She<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2033-2034\">used<\/span>\u00a0to\u00a0<span id=\"1423-2035-2036\">go<\/span><span id=\"1423\">\u00a0through<\/span>\u00a0my\u00a0<span id=\"1891-1892\">things<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"p1210\">\u2013\u00a0<span id=\"1417-2020-2021\">Leave<\/span>\u00a0her underwear in my\u00a0<span id=\"1882-1883\">drawers<\/span>, under my\u00a0<span id=\"1884-1885\">bed<\/span>,\u00a0<span id=\"2022-2023\">hoping<\/span>\u00a0I would\u00a0<span id=\"1418-2024-2025\">find<\/span>\u00a0it and\u00a0<span id=\"2026\">divorce<\/span>\u00a0him.<\/span><span id=\"p2320\">\u00a0I never did, because my helper kept it from me and\u00a0threw it away \u2013<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1278\">she<\/span>\u00a0didn\u2019t\u00a0<span id=\"1424\">want<\/span>\u00a0to\u00a0<span id=\"1425-2037-2038\">hurt<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1335\">me<\/span>, and\u00a0<span id=\"1344\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2039-2040\">understood<\/span>\u00a0when\u00a0<span id=\"1279\">she<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1422\">eventually<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1426\">told<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1336\">me<\/span>.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p1218\"><span id=\"1297-1402-1403-1404\">He<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404-2063-2064\">knew<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1345-1402-1403-1404\">I<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404\">\u00a0was\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404-1429-2065-2066\">checking<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404\">\u00a0his\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404-1908-1909\">statements<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404\">, and\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1310-1402-1403-1404\">he<\/span><span id=\"1402-1403-1404\">\u00a0got clever<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p4090\">He would either buy her stuff with cash or buy both of us gifts and the cost would be similar.<\/span><span id=\"p3334\">\u00a0He\u00a0<span id=\"3356-3659-3660\">bought<\/span>\u00a0her a\u00a0<span id=\"3585-3586\">pair<\/span>\u00a0of earrings in January\u00a0<span id=\"p3329\">\u2013 He also bought me a\u00a0<span id=\"3562-3563\">pair<\/span>\u00a0for my\u00a0<span id=\"3564\">birthday<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3330\"><span id=\"p3330-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3399-3635-p3330-pv\">According<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">\u00a0to her, my\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3565-3566-p3330-pv\">gift<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3636-3637-p3330-pv\">was<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">\u00a0an afterthought, because he\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3380-3638-3639-p3330-pv\">knew<\/span><span id=\"3380-p3330-pv\">\u00a0that I would\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3380-3640-3641-p3330-pv\">find<\/span><span id=\"3380-p3330-pv\">\u00a0her\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3380-3567-3568-p3330-pv\">pair<\/span><span id=\"3380-p3330-pv\">\u00a0on his credit card statement<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3398-p3330-pv\">needless to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3398-3642-3643-p3330-pv\">say<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">\u00a0I\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3644-3645-p3330-pv\">returned<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">\u00a0the\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3569-3570-p3330-pv\">gift<\/span><span id=\"p3330-pv\">.<\/span><\/span><span id=\"p3331\"><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0He\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3382-3646-3647-p3331-pl\">moved<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0her into a\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3571-3572-p3331-pl\">place<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0up\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3573-3574-p3331-pl\">road<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0from him, he\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3648-3649-p3331-pl\">said<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0she can\u2019t move in with him yet, because I am still <em>struggling<\/em> with the\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3575-3576-p3331-pl\">divorce<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">, and he\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3650-3651-p3331-pl\">needs<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0to be there for me,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3400-3401-p3331-pl\">you\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3400-3401-3652-3653-p3331-pl\">know<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3383-3654-3655-p3331-pl\">help<\/span><span id=\"p3331-pl\">\u00a0me through this.<\/span><\/span><span id=\"p3332\">\u00a0<em><strong><span id=\"3349\" class=\"s-rg-t\">WTF<\/span>, I have been\u00a0<span id=\"3656\">dating<\/span>\u00a0\u2013<\/strong><\/em><\/span><em><strong>\u00a0I have moved on.<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p3335\"><span id=\"3661-3662\">Let<\/span>\u2019s\u00a0<span id=\"3663-3664\">talk<\/span>\u00a0about the birthday burgers \u2013<\/span><span id=\"p4091\">\u00a0They decided to take the day off and spend it in my bed.\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"p3338\">The\u00a0<span id=\"3596-3597\">food<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3671-3672\">was<\/span>\u00a0their\u00a0<span id=\"3598\">lunch<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3339\">\u00a0Only the delivery guy,\u00a0<span id=\"3673-3674\">pressed<\/span>\u00a0the wrong button at the\u00a0<span id=\"3599-3600\">gate<\/span>, and I\u00a0<span id=\"3387-3675-3676\">got<\/span>\u00a0the\u00a0<span id=\"3601-3602\">call<\/span>.<\/span><br \/>\n<span id=\"p3342\"><span id=\"p3342-pl\">He panicked and\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3685-3686-p3342-pl\">told<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0her what\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3373-p3342-pl\">she<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3389-3687-3688-p3342-pl\">needs<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3390-3689-3690-p3342-pl\">say<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0and do\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"p3340\">\u2013 Because he does not want to get into trouble with me, she\u00a0<span id=\"3677-3678\">needs<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3381\">to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3381-3679-3680\">lie<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3341\">\u00a0He\u00a0<span id=\"3681-3682\">spent<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3603-3604\">most<\/span>\u00a0of our\u00a0<span id=\"3605-3606\">savings<\/span>\u00a0on his\u00a0<span id=\"3607-3608\">affair<\/span>\u00a0\u2013<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0it\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3691-3692-p3342-pl\">paid<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0for\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3609-3610-p3342-pl\">holidays<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0in<em><strong> cape town, sun city,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/span><em><strong><span id=\"3611-3612-p3342-pl\">weekends<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0in\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3613-3614-p3342-pl\">hotels<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3388-p3342-pl\">expensive<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0gifts, engraved promise rings and the\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3615-3616-p3342-pl\">list<\/span><span id=\"p3342-pl\">\u00a0goes on.<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p3343\"><span id=\"3374\">She<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3693-3694\">knew<\/span>\u00a0about the\u00a0<span id=\"3617-3618\">abuse<\/span>\u00a0that\u00a0<span id=\"3359\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3695-3696\">suffered<\/span>\u00a0\u2013<\/span><span id=\"p3344\">\u00a0But\u00a0<span id=\"3375\">she<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3697-3698\">felt<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3360\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3699-3700\">deserved<\/span>\u00a0it, why couldn\u2019t\u00a0<span id=\"3361\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3391\">just<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3392\">leave<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3368\">him<\/span>? <\/span><span id=\"p3345\">Why couldn&#8217;t\u00a0<span id=\"3362\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3393\">just<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3394\">let<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3369\">him<\/span>\u00a0be happy?<\/span><span id=\"p3346\"><span id=\"p3346-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3396-p3346-pv\">Instead<\/span><span id=\"p3346-pv\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3363-p3346-pv\">I<\/span><span id=\"p3346-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3701-3702-p3346-pv\">forced<\/span><span id=\"p3346-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3370-p3346-pv\">him<\/span><span id=\"p3346-pv\"> to have an affair<\/span><span id=\"p3346-pv\">, <strong><em>YOU MADE HIM DO IT<\/em><\/strong>, she said.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><em><span id=\"p3347\">My\u00a0<span id=\"3621-3622\">husband<\/span>, the\u00a0<span id=\"3623-3624\">person<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3364\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3397-3705-3706\">spent<\/span>\u00a017\u00a0<span id=\"3625-3626\">years<\/span>\u00a0with,\u00a0<span id=\"3707-3708\">convinced<\/span>\u00a0his\u00a0<span id=\"3627-3628\">mistress<\/span> that I <span id=\"3709-3710\">deserved<\/span>\u00a0every\u00a0<span id=\"3631-3632\">beating<\/span>\u00a0because how\u00a0<span id=\"3711-3712\">dare<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3365\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3713-3714\">question<\/span>\u00a0his\u00a0<span id=\"3633-3634\">affair<\/span>.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p3348\"><span id=\"p3348-pl\">At one stage of their <em><strong>\u201crelationship\u201d<\/strong><\/em>, she suffered the same\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3376-p3348-pl\">abuse<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">, she described to me, how we would climb on top of her, pin her arms down and choke her, she\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3366-p3348-pl\">said<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">\u00a0that it might not have been as intense as mine, but\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3377-p3348-pl\">abuse<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">\u00a0is\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3378-p3348-pl\">abuse<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">, and yet she still\u00a0believed\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3371-p3348-pl\">him<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">\u00a0when he\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3367-p3348-pl\">said<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">, he will marry her, as soon as I am <em><strong>\u201cover\u201d\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/span><span id=\"3372-p3348-pl\">him<\/span><span id=\"p3348-pl\">\u00a0\u2013<\/span><\/span><span id=\"p2762\">\u00a0<span id=\"2772\" class=\"s-rg-t\">WTF<\/span>\u00a0dude!<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p2763\"><span id=\"2993-2994\">Let<\/span>&#8216;s\u00a0<span id=\"2995-2996\">talk<\/span>\u00a0about the mysterious\u00a0<strong><span id=\"2800\">Mark<\/span>\u00a0Quinn.<\/strong><\/span><strong><span id=\"p2764\">\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><br \/>\n<span id=\"p2765\"><span id=\"2803-p2765-pl\">He<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2834-2997-2998-p2765-pl\">told<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0her how I was\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2999-3000-p2765-pl\">struggling<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0with the\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2963-2964-p2765-pl\">divorce<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">, and\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2801-p2765-pl\">Mark<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0Quinn was\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3001-3002-p2765-pl\">created<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0to <em><strong>\u201c<\/strong><\/em><\/span><em><strong><span id=\"2811-2835-3003-3004-p2765-pl\">help<\/span><\/strong><\/em><span id=\"p2765-pl\"><em><strong>\u201d<\/strong><\/em>\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2795-p2765-pl\">me<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3005-p2765-pl\">transition<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">, they\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3006-3007-p2765-pl\">decided<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0it\u2019<\/span><span id=\"3008-3009-p2765-pl\">s<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0a\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2832-p2765-pl\">good<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0idea to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2836-3010-3011-p2765-pl\">use<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0my\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2833-p2765-pl\">dead<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0child as a\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2813-2965-2966-p2765-pl\">way<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2812-2837-3012-3013-p2765-pl\">help<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2796-p2765-pl\">me<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0emotionally open up to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2802-p2765-pl\">Mark<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0and that\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2814-p2765-pl\">way<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2804-p2765-pl\">he<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0can\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3014-3015-p2765-pl\">convince<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"2797-p2765-pl\">me<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">\u00a0to <em><strong>\u201clet\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/span><em><strong><span id=\"3016-3017-p2765-pl\">go<\/span><span id=\"p2765-pl\">.<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/span><em><strong><span id=\"p2766\">\u201d\u00a0 (yeah I struggle to understand this one)<br \/>\n<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong><span id=\"p2767\">For 2\u00a0<span id=\"2967-2968\">years<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2805\">he<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2838-3018-3019\">lived<\/span>\u00a0two\u00a0<span id=\"2815-2969-2970\">lives<\/span>:<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p2768\">With her: <\/span><span id=\"p4092\">A secret life, where he made me out to be this horrible person, that he cannot stand to be around, she gave him that escape, to make his life happy again, because you know, he deserves to be happy, after being trapped in a \u201cloveless\u201d marriage.<\/span><span id=\"p3715\"><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3750-p3715-pl\">But<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0when\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3730-p3715-pl\">he<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3886-3887-p3715-pl\">did<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0the same to her,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3731-p3715-pl\">he<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3767-p3715-pl\">didn\u2019t think that\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3745-3767-p3715-pl\">she<\/span><span id=\"3767-p3715-pl\">\u00a0would\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3767-3888-3889-p3715-pl\">want<\/span><span id=\"3767-p3715-pl\">\u00a0to\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3752-3767-3774-3890-3891-p3715-pl\">end<\/span><span id=\"3767-p3715-pl\">\u00a0her\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3726-3767-3862-3863-p3715-pl\">life<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3751-p3715-pl\">but<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3746-p3715-pl\">she<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3892-3893-p3715-pl\">did<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3747-p3715-pl\">she<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0tried to and\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3753-p3715-pl\">ended up<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3894-3895-p3715-pl\">is<\/span><span id=\"p3715-pl\">\u00a0a Psychiatric Hospital.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p3716\">With us:<\/span><span id=\"p3717\">\u00a0Where\u00a0<span id=\"3732\">he<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3896-3897\">pleaded<\/span>, cried and\u00a0<span id=\"3898-3899\">begged<\/span>\u00a0every\u00a0<span id=\"3864-3865\">opportunity<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3733\">he<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3900-3901\">got<\/span>\u00a0for\u00a0<span id=\"3741\">me<\/span>\u00a0to\u00a0<span id=\"3775-3902-3903\">forgive<\/span>\u00a0him for the <em>\u201c<span id=\"3866-3867\">mistake<\/span>\u201d<\/em>\u00a0<span id=\"3734\">he<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3738-3904-3905\">made<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3718\">\u00a0<span id=\"3739-3906-3907\">Made<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3742\">me<\/span>\u00a0so paranoid,\u00a0<span id=\"3754\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3908-3909\">thought<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3755\">I<\/span>\u00a0was\u00a0<span id=\"3776\">crazy<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3719\"><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3735-p3719-pl\">He<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3777-3910-3911-p3719-pl\">told<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3743-p3719-pl\">me<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0how crazy\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3756-p3719-pl\">I<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3912-3913-p3719-pl\">am<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3757-p3719-pl\">I<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3914-3915-p3719-pl\">belong<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0in a\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3782-p3719-pl\">mental institution<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3764-p3719-pl\">no<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3868-3869-p3719-pl\">person<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0would\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3740-p3719-pl\">make up<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\"> stories so far fetched about his <strong>\u201c<\/strong><\/span><strong><span id=\"3870-3871-p3719-pl\">affair<\/span><\/strong><span id=\"p3719-pl\"><strong>\u201d<\/strong> &#8211;\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3765-p3719-pl\">no one<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0will\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3916-3917-p3719-pl\">believe me<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3762-p3719-pl\">He<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3918-3919-p3719-pl\">said<\/span><span id=\"p3719-pl\">.<\/span><\/span><span id=\"p3720\">\u00a0<em><strong>And for the\u00a0<span id=\"3778\">longest<\/span>\u00a0time\u00a0<span id=\"3758\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3920-3921\">believed<\/span>\u00a0him, until one\u00a0<span id=\"3872-3873\">day<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3759\">I<\/span>\u00a0didn&#8217;t.<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><em><span id=\"p3721\"><span id=\"3763\">He<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3768\">never thought that\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3760-3768\">I<\/span><span id=\"3768\">\u00a0would\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3768-3779-3922-3923\">leave<\/span><span id=\"3768\">\u00a0him<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3046\">\u00a0<strong><span id=\"3067\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3168-3169\">did<\/span>.<\/strong><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><span id=\"p3047\">He\u00a0<span id=\"3077\">never thought that\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3068-3077\">I<\/span><span id=\"3077\">\u00a0would\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3077-3170\">divorce<\/span><span id=\"3077\">\u00a0him<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3048\">\u00a0<strong><span id=\"3069\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3171-3172\">did<\/span>.<\/strong><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><span id=\"p1249\">He never thought\u00a0<span id=\"1362\">I<\/span> would move on.<strong>\u00a0<span id=\"1363\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2203-2204\">did<\/span>.<\/strong><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><span id=\"p1250\">He\u00a0<span id=\"1409\">never thought that\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1364-1409\">I<\/span><span id=\"1409\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"1272-1409\">would<\/span><span id=\"1272\"> TAKE<\/span>\u00a0my\u00a0<span id=\"1983-1984\">voice<\/span>\u00a0back, <strong>but\u00a0<span id=\"1473-1474\">fuck<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"1365\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"2205-2206\">did<\/span>.<\/strong><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><span id=\"p1251\">Everyone\u00a0<span id=\"1461-2207-2208\">asked<\/span>\u00a0me after they had\u00a0<span id=\"1462-2209-2210\">learnt<\/span>\u00a0the\u00a0<span id=\"1985-1986\">truth<\/span>\u00a0\u2013<\/span><span id=\"p1252\">\u00a0why not take revenge?<\/span><span id=\"p1253\">\u00a0Because<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong><span id=\"p1254\"><span id=\"1987-1988\">Revenge<\/span> <\/span><\/strong><\/em><span id=\"p1255\"><em><strong><span id=\"1463-2211-2212\">is<\/span>\u00a0a\u00a0<span id=\"1989-1990\">product<\/span>\u00a0of\u00a0<span id=\"1991-1992\">hatred<\/span><\/strong><\/em>.<\/span><span id=\"p4093\">Wanting to get revenge on him would show and create the perception that I cared about him, and I didn\u2019t.<\/span><span id=\"p3924\">\u00a0<em><strong><span id=\"3941\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"4037-4038\">knew<\/span>\u00a0to some\u00a0<span id=\"4039-4040\">extend<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3942\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3949-3958-4041-4042\">hated<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3935\">him<\/span>.<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><em><strong><span id=\"p3925\"><span id=\"3950\">Hate<\/span> i<\/span><\/strong><\/em><span id=\"p3926\"><em><strong><span id=\"3962-4043-4044-p3926-pv\">s<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0a\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3965-p3926-pv\">very<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3953-3959-p3926-pv\">powerful<\/span><\/strong><\/em><span id=\"p3926-pv\"><em><strong>\u00a0word<\/strong><\/em>, it\u2019s even more\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3954-3961-p3926-pv\">powerful<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0when you\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3963-4045-4046-p3926-pv\">feel<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0it,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3943-p3926-pv\">I<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0have\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3951-3964-4047-4048-p3926-pv\">hated<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3936-p3926-pv\">him<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0for the\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3960-p3926-pv\">longest<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0time,\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3944-p3926-pv\">I<\/span><span id=\"p3926-pv\">\u00a0have wanted so many answers.<\/span><\/span><span id=\"p3927\">\u00a0<span id=\"3945\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3967-4049-4050\">spent<\/span>\u00a0so much\u00a0<span id=\"4021-4022\">energy<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3966\">just<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3952-3968\">hating<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3937\">him<\/span>, but why?<\/span><span id=\"p3928\"> <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span id=\"p3929\"><em><strong><span id=\"4023-4024\">Trauma<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3970-4053-4054\">is<\/span>\u00a0a\u00a0<span id=\"3969\">difficult<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3200\">thing<\/span>\u00a0to overcome<\/strong><\/em>, but when\u00a0<span id=\"3192\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"4055-4056\">did<\/span>,\u00a0<span id=\"3193\">I<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3971-4057-4058\">learned<\/span>\u00a0the\u00a0<em><strong><span id=\"4025-4026\">power<\/span>\u00a0of Indifference.<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><em><strong><span id=\"p3930\"><span id=\"4027-4028\">Indifference<\/span>\u00a0\u2013<\/span><\/strong><\/em><span id=\"p3177\"><em><strong>\u00a0The most\u00a0<span id=\"3218\">powerful<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3201\">thing<\/span>\u00a0<span id=\"3194\">I<\/span>\u00a0could have\u00a0<span id=\"3219-3323-3324\">done<\/span>\u00a0for myself<\/strong><\/em>, was being indifferent towards the\u00a0<span id=\"3202-3295-3296\">things<\/span>\u00a0outside of my\u00a0<span id=\"3297-3298\">control<\/span>.<\/span><span id=\"p3178\">\u00a0It\u2019<span id=\"3204\">s not that\u00a0<\/span><span id=\"3195-3204\">I<\/span><span id=\"3204\">\u00a0didn\u2019t care in an emotional sense<\/span>. <\/span><span id=\"p4094\">It\u2019s that I was much more in control of my behavior in the face of those emotions.<\/span><span id=\"p4059\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><em><strong><span id=\"p4060\">He can&#8217;t\u00a0<span id=\"4065\">control<\/span>\u00a0me anymore.<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><strong><span id=\"p4061\">I AM FREE.<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>They\u00a0met\u00a0at\u00a0work.\u00a0She\u00a0was\u00a020\u00a0years\u00a0his\u00a0junior\u00a0and\u00a0reporting\u00a0to him.\u00a0He\u00a0was fascinated with her, her\u00a0youth, they had\u00a0so\u00a0much\u00a0in\u00a0common. \u00a0They\u00a0started\u00a0spending all their 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